I'm sorry.

Do you know what it is like,
to lie in bed awake;
with thoughts to haunt you every night,
of all your past mistakes.

Knowing sleep will set it right-
if you were not to wake.


G.

We were so happy.

Last

I have been keeping it all inside me all these while. Flashbacks from 2009 never once stopped, it will pass through my mind every single day. Everyday I'm hoping one day it would end, and it's not exaggerating.

This feeling I'm feeling, I don't know what it is. But I'm certain it's not love anymore. It's the memories.
I'm too lucky to have someone now who loves me unconditionally, knowing that part of me is still living in the past, yet accepts me for who I am. Until yesterday, I cried so hard.

I asked him, why does he treats me so well and still sticks around with me even knowing everything from the start. Those things I've done sneakily behind him, he forgives.
His answer is just as simple as he loves me for who I am, and he is still waiting for the day that I will totally clear him off my mind. He fell for my smile, even if it's not genuine.

I love him too. I really do. No words could describe how grateful I am to have met him.
But then I ask myself, why am I still making myself feel so fuckin terrible for another person from the past?
I don't know. It's been over a year since we broke up. Maybe he brought me to too many places, and everywhere I go and everything I do it'll remind me of him.

But I believe one day, very soon, all these will be over.
Like he said, he believes one day I will be as happy as I used to be before I met him.

Because for someone who can't let go of the past, will never be happy.

I am trying hard, very hard.

By then, we would get married and live happily ever after :')

Thank you, my guardian angel, G.

08/09/12

As usual, weekend date with the boy is always well-spent ;-)

This week we went to Big Bad Wolf and Tanjong Katong for dinner, been wanting to go there since forever!

They have awesome crews that keep on coming back to our table and ask how's the food!!!

And the food is good!!! Worth the calories hahaha

My botak boy

We ordered The Works and The Chicken Works! Both yummy! :-D

 

We head to our usual dating spot at Mount Faber(Faber Bistro) after dinner!

 

The love of my life

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with weiwei at Casuarina Curry when we were supposed to go to Udders :-(

 slacking away @ work w/ Ezza!!!

i love to cook meals for myself sometimes ^^

the love of my life, we canz be da sweetest couple hahaha

Yayyyyyy I'm nearing my goals each day ;-D

First Anniversary on 7/08/12 ❤ ♡ ❤ ღ

No fancy celebrations or expensive presents.

We merely had a fulfilling lunch at Kungfu Paradise @ Jcube, worked till 3pm that day and Gatti came to fetch me :')
Didn't have any picture of me, I look like death that day hahaha.

He is supposed to be at Tekong on that day but went out by having MC from changi hospital.
Hmm.

Anyway, haven't seen him since last Wednesday when he booked in. To be precise, not even Wednesday, as he needs to book in at 7am so I went home the night before :(

But I'll see him in two more days!!!! TGIFriday!!!!!
We're gonna treasure the rest of the following weekends together cuz' it's just pass soooo fast always!

It's already 2:49am and I'm gonna head to bed now~

Singing K with ah chu and yucca tomorrow in town hehehe goodnightzzzzz

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“I don’t understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to slp at night .how pictures never changes but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy , or how strange it is when ur worst enemy become ur best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something Tt you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it is easier than working things out.”